Saturday, December 30, 2006

waiting

i am currently waiting. waiting for cinnamon roll dough to rise--it will take a least an hour and a half. i don't wait very well. i was working on my attitude towards waiting for awhile and decided that waiting was an opportunity to relax. i'm not very good at relaxing. i'm waiting for a lot of things it seems. waiting to understand. waiting to know. waiting to see. waiting to arrive. waiting to make cinnamon rolls.

"it's been a hard year but i'm climbing out of the rubble these lessons are hard, healing changes are subtle. but every day it's...less like tearing more like building...less like captive more like willing...less like breakdown more like surrender...less like haunting more like remember...and i feel You here and You're picking up the pieces. forever faithful. it seemed out of my hands, a bad situation. but You are able, and in Your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars and more like character...less like a prison and more like my room...less like a casket more like a womb...less like dying and more like transcending...less like fear, less like an ending...and i feel You here and You're picking up the pieces. forever faithful. it seemed out of my hands, a bad situation... but You are able...in Your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars...just a little while ago i couldn't feel the power or the hope...i couldn't cope, i couldn't feel a thing...just a little while back i was desperate, broken, laid out...hoping You would come...and i need You and i want You here and i feel You...and i feel You here and You're picking up the pieces. forever faithful. it seemed out of my hands, a bad situation...but You are able...and in Your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars and in Your hands the pain and hurt look less like scars and more like character..."

less like scars by sara groves

so i'm waiting. hoping to relax as i wait. hoping to discover whatever it is that i'm waiting for. hoping to encounter the God that is forever faithful in the process.

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